I've made a mistake.
I've jumped to conclusions, I've been horrid, jealous, and bitter.
I know I'm not perfect, but I'm trying to be better. I'm trying to actually like myself...
I always had thought that I had my personality. I had that. That was the best thing about me. I thought I wasn't pretty enough, I thought I wasn't skinny enough, but at least I had my personality. The best part about me. Then I do things, in the heat of the moment, I say things, filled with emotion that I know I will regret, but I just don't care, because it sounds good. It makes me look like the good guy when I truly know I'm just a horrible cold person. A person who tries.
You may think it's smart to hate me and to ignore me. Maybe it is. You would know after all. But I'm not going to give up. Because that's not who I am.
Let me just say this... I'm sorry. To all I've hurt, toyed with, and broken.
I'm just sorry.
your not horrid, jealous, and bitter... your an awesome person that doesnt give a fuck what the world thinks about her and who expresses herself :) and thats what makes you so unique, so full of emotion and feelings that flood out, and you use writing to tap all this... ur not a horrible cold person, but an awesome, cool friend :D
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